Thank you for understanding, and the offer.

Thank you for your message. I was lucky that no matter how hard I tried I wasn't able to harm myself. With the help of someone I was able to remove all sharp objects from my sight. It seemed to have calmed down the thoughts, but didn't get rid of them.

Sadly, therapy and psychiatry aren't options for me, I'm chronically ill and I don't even have medical care for my chronic illness, let alone psychiatric problems, I do not live in a place where I can seek help, I live in a place where people are left to rot and die.

Thank you again, for your message. I wish you a nice day.

Thank you 🫂, even though I'm 9 days late. I still needed this today.

About grieving the life that you used to have/will never have. I got this at a pretty young age, so I don't really, I guess I miss being able to run. And sleeping and having most of the pain being gone. Ah yes, the grief, it's still there....

God that's so fucking true. I believe I'm on year 2, and for a long while I didn't get any help for it. It is only recently that I looked into getting help, mainly medication. The anti depressants did something alright, but the pain is still there, pulsing. Yeah truly 1/3 of a good day, the rest is just a makeshift haphazard duct tape operation of trying not to fully lose it, at least that's for me.