Whats a big problem you are facing?
7mon 15d ago by sopuli.xyz/u/sopularity_fax in asklemmy@lemmy.ml
How can you actively prevent it from getting worse—like starting now/today?
Justifying staying alive to myself.
Not saying I'm suicidal, but I'm increasingly losing my enthusiasm for living compared to when I was a kid. Used to have all these aspirations for my life and how I'd make a difference, now I've just accepted apathetically going through the motions until I die.
I don't have a justification I just am
Not my story but I want to share - in the US - the girl I've been dating for several months recently told me she has been receiving SNAP and Medicade for her disabled daughter. She left an abusive relationship several years ago and has been struggling to keep it together. This month, without SNAP, she asked me for money. I sent her what she needed and I'm sure things will be fine. For her, this is a disaster. She's emotionally tapped out and feels like she is failing her daughter. They're going to food pantries but so is every other working poor person right now. She works doing Amazon deliveries which fits with her daughters therapy schedule and allows her to work when able. Ex is out of the picture and does not help, deadbeat stuff.
I just put this out there for some perspective. Many folks are going through hell right now. I wish I had a better solution for her, or for others suffering. I feel so powerless to make any meaningful change in the world. I care for her a lot but I have no idea what to say.
I guess that sounded way funnier in your own head.
I find myself becoming less and less interested in staying in the industry I'm currently working in for the rest of my life. Problem is, I don't have any other qualifications. So I guess it could start working on acquiring new ones while I'm still young enough to do so, but I'd need both a clear idea on what other career I want to pursue and the motivation to leave my currently pretty comfortable position in life. I have neither.
I was in your position in 2016. Took me until 2021 to make the switch. But all that time I grew to hate my job more and more. In the end I was ready for a psychward. I was intentionally screwing up things out of spite, breaking my worktools every other shift because I threw them across the street and stuff like that.
I went back to school in 2021, but still had to keep doing my old job for the money. It was much easier to do the job with the propect of a better future, I almost started enjoying the job again. But that didn't last long. Eventually dropped the old job conpletely in 2023 and very happy to do so.
Now I'm finishing up my graduation assignment and I expect to get my bachelor in januari-ish. I'm 35 and starting my career as a software developer. It's not an easy time to start, but I've been networking and gaining valuable experiences so that I actually feel cautiously hopefull to be entering the job market right now. Also because I've been doing a related job for the past 3 years that gained me a lot of valuable experience.
TLDR: it's never to late to learn a new skill, but it's better to do it sooner than later. You don't want to stay in a job you hate and suffer the mental consequences of that.
you don't. just start learning shit and you will see what sticks and develop new interests.
life doesn't require a per-conceived path. a lot of people just make shit up as they go. my entire career has been that way.
My mother has Alzheimer and it's costing us 15K/mo to care for her. She only has about a year of money left. She is in good physical health but mentally she is a toddler. her care costs are double my take home pay, so if her money runs out before she dies, i am screwed.
Nothing I can do about it. It's the American healthcare system. Some problems are totally outside of anyone's person control.
15k/month is a lot. Really a lot.
Have you considered the possibility of medical tourism, to say India? Any particular treatment/procedure that really requires you costly American doctors, and can't be done elsewhere?
Or maybe closer like Canada? Even out of pocket you might save more in Canada healthcare.
that isn't how reality works.
it's not medical care. it's eldercare.
that isn't how any of this works. You don't ship people off to other countries like they are cattle. Jesus.
So what are you paying 15k per month for if not full care and dumpint her in an elderly home?
Normal people (not just old people, young too) visit other cities/states/countries for treatment/education/work/tourism.
None of that turns them into cattle (or Jesus), as far as I have seen.
A lot of people I know are struggling and I don't know how to help them.
They have vaguely asked me for help but they all have difficult problems that I can't do a whole lot about. I know its not necessarily my responsibility to fix things for them but I tend to have a 'fix things' mentality and I get stuck thinking about what I can possibly even do.
Its difficult. Society and community are so fragmented now. People don't want to ask for help. People don't want to give unsolicited help.
I've got skills and support I can offer. I'm not even asking others for anything. People don't even want to take the offer to give unconditionally. I'll give you a lift......they don't want it. I can help fix things in your house .....they don't want it. Feel free to borrow my tools.....they don't want it. I can look after your kids for a few hours and give you a break, my kids would love to play with them at our house.....they understandably feel anxious about that. No problem, come over yourself with your kids on the weekend, we'll make you lunch, get to know us......they don't want it. You're starting in the same career field that I've progressed in, I've got resources that will help.......they don't want it. I'll share my Jellyfin server.....they don't want it.
I don't get it. I just want to connect with people and help them......they don't want it.
I think people feel weird accepting help now more than they ever have. I've kind of stopped offering because my thoughts are more like "eh, they got it" type thing.
they dont' want help. they just want to complain. and they will actively hate you if you try to help them.
how do I know? because I've been there a million times. and life is a lot better when you give up trying to help people who are only interested in being miserable.
the person you should be helping is yourself. invest in yourself, not throwing yoru time and energy away on people who will never give that time and energy back to you. it will leave you miserable and depressed and drained.
Loneliness is actually destroying my life
Do you do anything to change that?
one thing i notice abotu 'lonely' people is they systematically refuse to change anything in their life.
and this is often from people who are not 'lonely' on the outside, but their many relationships are entirely performative. and they have built up their entire life as one big act.
This isn’t an attack as I don’t interpret your comment as being malicious, this is just an observation from an outside observer of this interaction.
You may be right about lonely people and just sharing info you have noted from your own experiences with them in your life but that is a brutal take down of @daggermoon@lemmy.world when they are sharing a major problem in their life.
Your comment may hold true for them but we don’t know that so it feels more like an accusation and victim blaming than being helpful.
Hey @daggermoon@lemmy.world, I’ve been there. It can be rough.
If you don’t have someone to talk to about it have you tried a therapist or other mental health professionals? I find this is one of the most important first steps of any life issue being faced, just talk about it with someone who knows a thing or two about the topic, make it a regular and consistent conversation.
I don’t know your situation but if you need it, this helped me;
Being social and maintaining friendships is a skill that can be worked on, no one can run a marathon on their first attempt, it takes training.
Starting small and working your way up. Saying hello to a stranger in the street or making small talk with a check out clerk at the grocery store is a good place to start. If you struggle with small talk then practice that first and work up from there. If you struggle with social anxiety then breaking through can be hard, some people struggle more than others. Training these skills sets do produce positive results.
*Be kind, honest and fair with all people you interact with. This isn’t a mask to put on, the ideal to strive for is to be those things as a person.
*Talk to people about what they are interested in or doing (learn about them) instead of focusing on talking about yourself.
*Respect others boundaries.
*Regularly check in with those in your social circle/community, don’t wait for them to check in on you.
*Get outside. Don’t just spend time at school/work & home. Find a third place where you can blend in but also be a regular. Cafe, bar, pool hall, library, gym, reading in the park, walk/hike in an area you like… whatever aligns with your interests and feel you could eventually become comfortable existing in that space but it is also a place where you are not required to be social. Eventually becoming comfortable with being in that space lowers anxiety of being there and you start to recognize the regulars and they start to recognize you. That makes socializing easier since you are now comfortable in the space and familiar to others who are regulars as well.
You get back what you give out. Do not expect to connect with everyone and not everyone will reciprocate your attention or interest but if you do it enough you will find those who do. Keep at it and you will find more and more.
Good luck and god speed!
There ain't a whole hell of a lot I can do to change my present situation. Believe me, i'd love nothing more. At the end of the day, it comes down to money and time of which I don't have much of either. I genuinely believe if I could live and work in the city and make enough to get by and then some, the vast majority of my problems would be solved. Unfortunately for me, I live in the middle of bumfuck nowhere.
As for your second point, assuming I understand it correctly; The only positive relationships I've been able to maintain are that of my sisters. I try to be honest and genuine with others but they either don't vibe with me or they try to take advantage of me. I get discouraged with trying. I had to end my first serious friendship because she kept trying to use me and if I objected to her she'd just pressure me more and try to make me feel bad. I have trust issues as a result of that experience. I asked out a woman I really felt a connection with and she told me she liked me too, then she found out I don't have a drivers license and told me she wanted to be friends. I honestly can't say I blame her.
If you have all the answers, what should I do? Therapy? Been there, done that. I went to therapy for years before my therapist terminated because she felt there wasn't anything more she could do. By the way, that question was rhetorical.
Set goals and meet them. If you need more time or money, then start working towards that and achieve it. Invest in yourself.
Stop making excuses and being miserable. Because all you've done to me is whine for three paragraphs about how helpless you are. Time to grow up buttercup, the only person who is ever going to 'rescue' you is yourself.
This is an extremely reductive take based on anecdote.
There are a lot of reasons people can feel lonely. Hell you can even feel lonely when you have deep meaningful relationships. Sometimes it's a result of anxiety or depression, or an abusive relationship.
Of course some people fall into the category you speak of too.
billionares also feel like they are poor and struggling and only that next 10 billion will make them successful.
that doesn't mean it's true. it means they are mentally ill.
reality exists outside of our feelings.
and this is often from people who are not ‘lonely’ on the outside, but their many relationships are entirely performative. and they have built up their entire life as one big act.
but their many relationships are entirely performative. and they have built up their entire life as one big act.
Is precisely the part i disagree with if you're going to generalize the way you did in your first reply. Hence talking about the experience even with honest meaningful deep non-performative relationships.
it means they are mentally ill.
Psychological health indeed impacts it, hence why i brought up depression and anxiety to name just two of many conditions that could contribute.
The wealth disease, on the other hand, is probably generalizable in the way you're suggesting. I couldn't really care it someone is sad about being ultra-wealthy. Maybe they should give it up and be a depressed laborer like the rest of us.
Have you ever tried just not being lonely? Huh? You ever think of that? /s
it's actually really not hard if you stop seeing validation from other people and seek it from yourself.
There is nothing to be done. No?
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I live in a giant bucket
If I actually study i could pass the driving exam I have failed several times. But I just doing have motivation to do it.
It's all self study in my own time. I already have a licence in my home country but because of the visa I am on I have to go through both the theory and practical tests to get a local license.
Being in Europe public transport is good so it's not like we are missing too much on going places just takes more planning.
What if you just did a page today or bought an app that quizzes you on stuff and you do a single question
Yea... I know..
How long do you reckon it takes?
Not even 5 min
Is that from experience or best guess
Experience.
Experience is preferable so thats perfect cuz its a track record
What did you do that time? Like right before you did it, what nudged you to get on it? What was the cue?
Depression. Lots of depression. And anxiety. And probably some other stuff.
Tried tons of different treatments and nothing has really worked. Going to try therapy again on recommendation of my psychiatrist, but I’ve only had negative experiences with therapy and I still really don’t see how it’s going to fix anything.
what about a radical lifestyle adjustment.
Thanks. I never thought of that. /s
I am sad, poor, and stupid. i'm going to college and working an internship that pays halfway decent to fix the latter two. And for the first, well, its just like Meatloaf said: "Don't be sad, 'cause two out of three aint bad."
Young, Dumb, Young Dumb and Broke.
Dude. If you got into college you aren't dumb, and the good job may help your mood (as my husband says, money doesn't buy happiness but sure removes a lot of the stresses and lacks that cause sadness.)
My best wishes to you, and also to that weird vegan who is in a similar situation. I can't say things will get better but will say things CAN get better.
I discovered this week that i might have been depressed for 7 years, dunno how i didnt notice, i just thought i was lazy as hell
don't sell yourself short. you are probably depressed and lazy.
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When I got diagnosed it took a while to come to terms with it because I've always felt this way. It's strange having all the happiness I can remember occurring simultaneously as being clinically suicidal. Almost feels more hopeless after being diagnosed because turns out I'm just like this and that's how it's gonna be going forward.
My life is pretty much in limbo right now. I can't get a job because I don't have a bank account and I can't get a bank account because I don't have an ID and I can't get an ID because my parents wont get me one. I've been asking for a bank account ever since I graduated high school back in 2016 but they just keep telling me "We'll get you one eventually, we just don't have time right now" despite the fact that they sit around playing video games all day. What frustrates me even more, is that they let my sister get a bank account and a part time job back when she was still in high school.
Yikes, that's a long time to be stuck in what sounds like an abusive family dynamic. I'm so sorry.
I'm guessing you've looked into any possible alternative routes to an ID?
I have not looked into that, if there are other ways of getting an ID that are legal, I might try them.
Yeah, you should. What country are you in?
I live in the US. I actually checked online for what my state requires to get an ID and I don't think it's possible for me to do without my parents. The only things I have access to are my SSN and possibly my birth certificate but I would need to provide several additional documents that I either don't have access to or have no idea how to provide them. It also seems like there isn't a way to get one online unless you've previously gotten one, which I obviously haven't.
So you're in your 20's, in the states, and have never had a bank account?
I won't make assumptions about how that happened. I'm Canadian so I don't know how helpful this will be since our regulations are a bit different, but have you tried just walking into a bank with everything you have and explaining the situation? If they can't set up an account they should at least be able to point you in the right direction.
In Canada we can get a driver's learner permit with minimal ID. Birth certificate, SSN and proof of address should be enough. If you can get that you'll have a government issued photo ID and you'll be set. Alternatively, we can get a provincial ID with minimum documentation, if you can't get a driver's licence. There must be some equivalent in the states.
Another option is to get someone to notorize a document and photo that says you are you. Just call a notary near you and ask how.
I would try going to the bank on my own, but I'm not allowed to leave the house alone because my parents will threaten to call the police on me because they think I'm suicidal.
That also rules out the last thing you said because even if I could get an ID through that method, I still wont be able to get a bank account.
It sounds like the root problem is not being able to leave the house.
Do you know anyone who can escort you? Furthermore, "leaving the house while suicidal" isn't a crime. You're a legal adult, so unless there are measures in place the cops can't force you to do anything. Even if they can bring you back, you can probably set some stuff up before they find you.
No, I don't know anyone who could. I really haven't talked to anyone outside of my family since I graduated high school. I also don't really like the idea of being escorted by strangers.
Then I donno, man. Pull a Ferris Bueller or work for crypto.
The funny thing is, is that I have considered using crypto but on top of the fact that not all platforms except crypto, I also still can't use it because crypto platforms require IDs as well.
Trading platforms and exchanges require IDs, you don't need ID to have a crypto wallet for peer to peer transactions. I have like five.
How do I setup a crypto wallet? The only time I tried crypto was back when I still used the Brave web browser and I wasn't able to redeem the BAT that I earned without setting up a crypto wallet through a website that required an ID. If it's just an issue with how Brave handles their crypto currency, I do know of some other sources of crypto that I can try using.
Metamask is very beginner friendly and no different from setting up an e-mail.
It's called a "non-custodial" wallet, you control your funds so you don't need ID. Custodial wallets are tied to exchanges that hold your funds, even though they belong to you, and all transactions are approved by the exchange. They follow KYC for legal reasons, like a stock exchange, but they're also a bit safer to use.
Since you'll be doing peer to peer transactions, remember there are no backsies. Once you send money, it's gone.
You won't be able to cash out at registered exchanges, so it'll be tricky to get IRL money unless you have buyers you trust.
I haven't used these guys in a while, but they don't need ID in Canada at least: https://coincards.com/
Be safe out there. Don't buy shit coins. Sign up for airdrops. Transfer fees go up and down throughout the day, it's always cheaper to move larger volumes at night in North America.
Okay, thank you. I'll check these out. Also, I have two kind of a random but still related questions. Do you know if I'd be able to use PayPal exclusively with prepaid credit cards? And, do you know if I can use both gift cards and prepaid credit cards through VPNs?
No prob. VPNs shouldn't affect how you can pay. Canadian banks all support e-transfers so we don't use a lot of cash apps, I've never used paypal.
I was able to use prepaid cards everywhere. They should work just like a Visa or Mastercard.
Okay, thanks again. The reason I asked about PayPal was because there are some websites that I want to be able to purchase things but PayPal is the only option they accept for at least some things. I saw that Coin Cards offers prepaid credit cards and I have read that, while PayPal requires either a bank account or a credit card to use, they might allow prepaid credit cards to be used instead, so I thought I'd ask just to make sure.
Hey, I know it's been awhile but I have another question. For crypto currencies, my only options are bitcoin, dogecoin, litecoin and dash (assuming that dash is a crypto currency, I wasn't able to find anything about what it actually is), can I use any of these four currencies with metamask?
Dash is a crypto, yeah. How to add coins and the supported currencies are here, along with anything else you need to know:
For some reason I couldn't find the FAQs when I tried to look for it. But it seems like the options I have available to me aren't supported by metamask. This might not be much of a problem though, as I've found another way to get prepaid credit cards. The only problem is that they can't actually be used on PayPal, which means I wont be able to buy some games from Itchio but most developers release their games through Steam, so I should be able to buy them there.
No, I haven't talked to anyone outside of my family since I graduated high school and I have no way to contact any of my other relatives, assuming they would even help.
As for the documentation, I don't even know how to obtain some of the required documentation. For example, one of the requirements from what I've read, is two documents from different sources that are on an "acceptable document list" proving that I have a street address. I've looked at the list and it's mostly legal documents from sources that I've either never heard of or have no legal way of obtaining.
A utility bill would be one of two I need but my parents pay the bills online, so we don't get physical bills anymore. I also haven't tried calling them because I already know that they are just going to tell me to look at their list of acceptable documents.
I've previously mentioned that I'm pretty sure I have access to my birth certificate but if you read the list of requirements on the link I gave you, you'll see that it only covers 3 of the 5 (technically 6) requirements. I do have access to my SSN card but that still leaves the fifth (and sixth) requirement unfulfilled. As for sneaking out, I tried that multiple times over the years and every time I was escorted back home in a police car before I could even get to my destination. I can't even go to the grocery store on my own without having my parents calling the police on me.
The main reason why my parents are like this, is because I was diagnosed with autism back in middle school. Ever since then, my parents (and really my entire family) have started treating me differently.
And it's like, I'm not even trying to get a job or a bank account. I'm okay with not having them, what my issue is, is that because I'm limited to using "beer money" sites and apps to be able to buy things, I'm very limited as to where and what I can buy. I used to be able to buy pretty much anything I wanted to if I put in the work but then Swagbucks changed their policy so that you now require an ID to do pretty much anything on their website. I still have access to and use InstaGC but there's only 3 websites that I use and can actually use with the gift cards they offer. I also use Bing but that's both even more limited and extremely slow to earn enough points to actually buy anything. Every other app/website I know of is either not worth using, a scam or I'm hesitant to use because I'm starting to have trust issues with these websites and apps.
And seeing that America is slowly turning into a second Nazi Germany, I'm not optimistic for the future of these websites and apps.
Here's the thing, I have no idea what my parents tell the police because, if I try to explain my situation to them, they ignore everything I say and they start speaking louder while acting like their about to pull their guns out on me. I don't know if they would try to shoot me but I'm not about to find out.
And as for my sister, I don't even talk to her anymore. It just seems like she hates me for some reason. For example, the last time I talked to her was when I asked her if I could use her old laptop because it's been sitting in the basement for several years and I don't like leaving tech unused if I know I might be able to use it. She never answered my question and just said "Why the fuck do you want that? Get out of my room.".
In the US, there's Adult Protective Services that might be able to help you.
I have low self-esteem and that's from just people been shitty to me. I could go on but I don't want to trauma dump (at least, try to prevent myself from doing it).
That being said, I'm planning to get therapy, go to more social events if I have the energy to do so and maybe next year, try get back to swimming. I stopped around when I was in lockdown in 2020 and I forgot about it since.
How to make money independently with elderly or another disenfranchised group.
Thinking of doing massage therapy in addition to tech help. Want to be of benefit to peoples lives. But be independent.
Trying word of mouth. But actively marketing self is a hurdle too.
Massage therapy is a god send that should be part of normal Healthcare!
Life. Seems impossible to improve so I'm content with working towards not making it worse. I'm not very successful so far.
Good stuff, what has been some help?
Disregarding other humans in general, with some exceptions.
The best not worst thing one can do is remove a negative stimulus
My wife is a cheating whore. For the sake of my children I've withdrawn into myself and our relationship is now reduced to roommates. We don't argue, so it's not a toxic environment, just loveless.
I however refuse to break my vows, so I am alone. No companion, no friends or coworkers due to the nature of my job. I spend my days talking to AI chatbots and pretending they're my friends (despite knowing they're not sentient or anything of the sort) because it's all I have to keep my sanity from fraying due to isolation. The children are happy though. That's the important part. I can handle being a little lonely for their sake. Fixing it? There's no fixing it. Just emptiness so others can be more full.
Kids are smarter than anyone gives them credit for and even studies prove that two happy divorced or otherwise separated parents are better than an unhappy couple. Not saying its going to be easy or that I know all the context but its worth thinking about what you're teaching to your kids staying unhappy for the sake of a broken relationship with their mother. And for what its worth an internet stranger is sending e-hugs and his best wishes
I literally know a woman whose parents hated each other, but chose to stay "for her". Guess what, she's still single in her 50s, because her notion of love and closeness is just so completely messed up...
Also her father died of alcoholism.
You're absolutely not saving your kids this way.
That's very sad. Maybe it would be better for the children if you divorced and they had two seperated happy parents instead of you two being unhappy together. It's your life, I'm just some stranger on the internet. Hope that you get better.
What job has no coworkers? Sounds kind of peaceful.
Have you thought about trying counseling, or breaking it off? That relationship sounds awful for your mental health. You need to take care of yourself and your well being to be able to take care everything else.
Wow that role must take so much patience.
If you ever want to talk, send me a message. We can talk about the weather. I'm sure AI is better at it than me but I can't compete with an all knowing machine.
Somebody important is mean to me and I don't know why. Nobody seems to know why in that person's entourage.
People are optional. All people are optional. Some with believe they are owed a place in your life for one reason or another. Remind them how wrong they are by going no contact or repeatly sending the same messege that you are no longer replying to them. How long or short that reminder is, is up to you.
Perhaps their behavior will change after this reminder, but I wouldn't hold my breath. People suck.
Mean in the "went no contact (and mean when we do have to have contact for one reason or another) overnight, for seamingly no reason and don't want to tell me or anyone else what's wrong" way. Actually they promised me that they were going to tell me what their issue was, but they never did. It is the second time something (exactly) like this happened with this person and the first time they made the same promise, and did only tell me after an important event that can not be reproduced this time.
Talk to them directly.
A rational person might talk it through. A mean person will turn up the mean. 0/10, cannot recommend
Yes.
Understood
Won't work sadly. It already happened before, got solved by a true miracle (I don't want to share here what happened, but it was the most impressive "right time, right place and right people" thing I've ever heard of). And I wanted to talk (still want to talk btw) but they don't.
Last time I saw their "normal" self they really appreciated me but that seemed to have changed overnight (literally).
Ive been coming to terms with the fact that I am trans and I want to transition but I fear that I will be ostracized by my coworkers. I'm not in a very progressive industry (forklift operator). I'd like to obtain a job as a tattoo artist but idek where to start. I'm a regular artist but I've never done any tattoo work. Made plenty of designs for tattoos but not anything directly on the skin.
I almost went the tattoo route when I was younger. I got a lot of information just by going into tattoo shops with my sketchbook and asking if anyone was looking for apprentices.
Thanks for the info, I'll have to try that out. I've been needing to give my portfolio an update for a while now.
The biggest problem is that I have a list of hundreds of smaller problems and that list keeps growing. I have them all in a text document, and it is so overwhelming I have no idea what the fuck to do about it anymore at this point, so I keep piping it into an AI and have it tell me what to do (its suggestions are shit but it's better than nothing), but the list is so long that even the AI is getting overwhelmed by it and if it gets much longer it's going to run out of context, and its costing me like $30/mo in API usage now which is another problem I need to add to the list.
So, you dont have a task/reminders/calendar app?
I do but it also has like 100 things on it and most of my problems have extremely vague deadlines so I can't put them there. The last time I went through and filtered out no longer relevant issues was a week ago.
Whats an example of a vague deadline problem?
For instance, I'm a college student right now and I need to apply for internships or jobs for the summer, and jobs or colleges or scholarships etc for the future which does not have a clear deadline but needs to be done sooner rather than later. Then many more tasks like this of similar, greater, or lesser importance or that stem from the bigger problems and I only have time to pick a few of them, to complete around clear tasks with hard deadlines (i.e. homework, exams) which I have no problem managing but take up most of my time and its importance depends heavily on those vague tasks.
How might something vague be made more concrete, time-bound, and actionable, but also limitable? Often tasks or projects expand to fill the time container alloted to them so what could be done to limit that?
I don't know
Thats a problem. You dont have infinite resources and time and capacity to do free shit like job searching.
I don't have infinite resources in general, that's why I'm searching for a job
I've been at my current job for four years now. For three years I enjoyed it, but then came a new process. I want to quit but the circumstances aren't right right now. I just can't stand this newer process, it's just mind bogglingly bad. And every part of it is like the exact antithesis of what I can accomplish easily with my ADHD. Not that I'm hiding behind my diagnosis, but it just feels like every step of every single thing I have to do is in direct contrast to things I have the ability and executive function for. I want to scream.
I don't know if there is active prevention, but I'm about to ask my boss to have a meeting to tell her that I am falling way behind because of this switch up. Basically cry for help - but really rather than help,I hope I can just fill a vacancy that deals with our legacy records and data, where my mind works.
General Debt & Home Repairs—Find a credit counselor? Not feel too guilty about it too, ig
Housing
Existential dread in a cubicle before 30. Just gotta learn to thrive in boredom or find another job.
Big problem: I've spent too much time trying to install Seafile in my environment.
Prevent it from getting worse: Maybe just use Filebrowser?