So I would say that is coming from your conditon. Im pretty sure you know what you have is no joke and results in many people ending up on the streets with a very poor quality of life. I don't know and can't speak for your therapist but your medication and guidance of professional medical people is your best bet at leading the best quality of life possible. Look and I know it sucks. While I do not have it my brother did and I get why he hated much of it. Work on enjoying life in simple ways. Do art or music if you can and enjoy others works if you can not. Enjoy nature. Enjoy food. I would stay away from thinking of the problems of the world. Its overwhelming even for those of us with our heads on relatively straight.

There's a lot about schizophrenia I don't understand.

I have tremendous respect for former therapist Daniel Mackler (who posts YT videos) and I'm curious about his approach to healing without antipsychotics. Knowing what I know about him, I'd imagine it's a trauma-focused, longer-term approach.

As a nursing student who sometimes works on psych wards, I would suggest trying to control positive symptoms, like delusions, through medication and/or psychotherapy, because I believe positive symptom control (especially during adolescence and young adulthood) is associated with better long-term functional outcomes, like employment, living independently, being married/partnered, etc.

I know it can be tough to find someone trustworthy. And I'd imagine that if I had schizophrenia I might feel attached to my symptoms and have some pause about trying to eliminate something that feels like a part of me. I'd probably try to honour/ preserve those symptoms in my memory (maybe through art or journaling), while trying to therapeutically address them for the sake of my bigger-picture life goals. On that note, maybe a peer (support, maybe self-identifying) group would be helpful, to hear perspectives from people who've been further down that road?

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